Khristian Ruaidhri McCulloch

2006 - 2006

Location	Oban
Age	0
Cause of Death	Not Listed?
Date of Birth	09/03/2006
Date of Death	09/03/2006
Visitors	1,200 since 14/09/2008
Creator	Tanya McCuish

Khristian ruaidhri mcculloch was born 9 march 2006 at 8.12pm he grew wing's at 8.22pm he was born
prematurly at 23 week's 6 day's he ment the world to me and his daddy we love and miss him so very
much till we meet again my aweet angel.

Our story

I was 24 week's gone i went to the hospital for a scan i found out i was having a little boy me and
my partner were so happy we went to the shop afterward's a bought our first shirt and denim's for
our little boy but the next day i was gettin weird cramp like feeling in my stomoch and i went to
the hospital they done a scan and said everything looked fine and my wee boy looked happy enough
movin round the screan they told me it would just be brackston hick's and that it would b fine so i
went home happy with what they said after all they are the expert's but the cramp and pain were
still there that night i couldn't get to sleep i was so agitated and the pain was still there but
the next day when i went to the toilet i could actualy feel somthing down below that was not part of
me i went back to the hospital for the second day running and told her about this she done a scan
again and told me the same everything was fine i could'nt even sleep due to the discomfort so back
home i went with the pain again the next day was my birthday 9 march still the pain was worsening i
couldn't handle it any more so at 5 o'clock that night back to the hospital again me and my partner
went they knew it was still the same thing that was wrong so i was checked over by 3 diffrent
midwife's that said the same thing brackston hick's they were monitering my baby's heart beat and
scaning my baby he looked fine so i was happy after all they know what they are doing then they
called in a doctor who came in i told him every thing and he touched my back and said dose it hurt
there i said yes he told me i had a urine infection and that i need to go to hospital 90 mile's away
so they phoned an ambulace i was still waiting a hour and a half later i remember i was sitting with
my dad in the room and my partner had went to get us some clothe's then i went to the toilet and my
water's broke i knew what this ment i was so scared and shouted my dad to get the midwife's they
scaned the baby again he was ok but 20 min's later he was stressed i was in labour and so scared for
my baby my partner was there with me now then at 8.20 pm 9 march 2006 my son was born they were
trying to keep him warm and helping him to breath nothing was said then 15 min's later they handed
me my son with nothing said i knew he was dead i felt so sick he was so cute and we all just cuddeld
into each other heart broken we had to stay in that night we sat with our little angel all night
just lookin at him and holding and cuddeling him it had not sank in we were just in orr with him the
preist came to bless him. Next day was time to say good bye it was so hard and emotinal so that
felling of some thing that didnt not belong to me was actually my son he was breach his bum i was
felling i was so upset and angry that no one had noticed i felt let down if i had got to the other
hospital 90 mile's away the story could have been diffrent they had all the eqipment i am never goin
to know he never had the chance for the first year afterward's it was all a daze every day i was not
on the land of the living or so to speak i felt i had nothing to live for so i rushed to get
pregnant 2 month's after and when i did i felt so paniky all day every day through my hole pregnancy
waiting for 24 week's to pass was the same thing going to happen again a boy again when i felt him
first kick i was in tear's i never felt a big kick befor just flutter's then my son cody was born he
keep's me on my toe's and is full os misschief.

I LOVE YOU SON AND ALWAY'S WILL REMEMBER
THE PAIN NEVER GET'S ANY EASYER IT JUST GET'S EASYER TO LIVE WITH
WHAT DOSE NOT KILL YOU MAKE'S YOU STRONGER

MUMMY & DADDY LOVE YOU

LOVING YOU IS EASY WE DO IT EVERYDAY
MISSING YOU IS A HEARTACHE THAT NEVER GOSE AWAY THOUGHT'S TODAY MEMORIES FOREVER

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What makes a Mother

I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today.
I asked what makes a Mother
And I know I heard him say.
A Mother has a baby
This we know is true.'

But God, can you be a Mother
When your baby's not with you?
Yes, you can, He replied
With confidence in His voice
I give many women babies
When they leave is not their choice.
Some I send for a lifetime
And others for a day.
And some I send to feel your womb
But there's no need to stay.

I just don't understand this, God
I want my baby here
He took a breath and cleared His throat
And then I saw a tear.
I wish I could show you
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child smile
With other children and say:
"We go to earth to learn our lessons
Of love and life and fear.

My Mommy loved me oh so much
I got to come straight here.
I feel so lucky to have a Mom
Who had so much love for me
I learned my lesson very quickly
My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh so much
But I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep
On her pillow's where I lay.
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper in her ear.
"Mommy don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I'm here."

So you see my dear sweet one
Your children are ok
Your babies are here in My home
And this is where they'll stay.
They'll wait for you with Me
Until your lesson is through.
And on the day that you come home
They'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother
It's the feeling in your heart.
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start.
Though some on earth may not realize
You are a Mother until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day
And you know you're the best one!